I tend to spend a lot of time inside. Whether it's trying to manage all of the papers piled up around my desk or searching craigslist for some kind of work, I tend to be inside a lot.
Finally, when I walk outside - the glorious sunshine and bright colors of the day astound me. I feel the fullness of Christ's love when the colors surround me and magnify my joy in His creation. This is what living is all about. Getting a breath of fresh air after being stifled inside four walls and staring at an illuminated computer screen. Somehow I lose touch with all that is "real" when I surf for hours at a time on my computer. Then I step outside and feel the warmth of the sun and feel joy rise at the colors of the marvelous leaves this Autumn has produced to share the message of God's never ending glory. I just want to be a sponge and soak it all in, being able to squeeze out his glorious beauty when needed. I want to be absorbent of His good grace, all of it so when it's a dry and dusty day, I can twist and produce a waterfall of goodness that He has stored up in my heart. Sometimes that happens to an extent, but what I've found is that I am more like a bowl that is filled for a short time. The filling is used up and I need to be filled again from the life giving source.
Jesus has been leading me a on a life enriching journey for the past couple of years. I've hit some road blocks and made some detours that were not in His plan. Losing my way and getting confused has led me right back to seeking Him and His plan. I would like to say that I am a confident and secure person who hears every command and direction He gives me. But, that would be misleading. I am a soul in search of refreshment, life and direction. I only find it when I totally seek His face and His way for my life.
I'd like to write about my journey and what I am learning. I am no way a teacher, but just a human who has found so much to be discovered in learning and getting to know the Creator of this world and of all things. Please join me as I search and find things that I never knew.
